There’s a kid out there,
And he’s gotta have it worse:
That’s what I told myself
When my parents’ words
Set fire to every single thought
About that girl I knew to be right.
The kids used to laugh
Because I guess I dressed like a guy;
It was a whispered sort of laugh,
But it shattered my ears
Like they were all screaming,
Why is that girl so weird?
And so I started to pray,
And I don’t know to whom,
Just the universe I guess:
The shit that’s bigger than all of us.
And to be honest
I prayed for that kid,
Not me, and I think
If I ever see him I’ll ask,
Do you think it’ll always be this bad?
The answer’s in your heart,
He’ll say to me
Pull back your sleeves girl,
Don’t be ashamed of your scars.
Let me tell you about
This one memory I have:
The night your vision went black.
I wonder if it haunts your dreams
Like it does mine
Nearly every night
Like it’s on a loop
Like that one song
That got you through
That one night with the knife
Remember, I was there
With the crushed pills,
And it would’ve been easy for us
To fall off that cliff.
We made a pact
But then your eyes rolled back,
And I got scared.
I made a few calls
And well, you weren’t happy about that.
I saved your life
When you wanted to die,
And I’ll never apologize for that.
That sort of ended you and I,
So I guess I’ll just be happy now
Knowing you’re alive.
Are you happy now
Knowing you’re alive?
So maybe this is just my way
Of saying hi.
Are you still up tonight?
Listen to me,
There’s a kid out there,
And he needs your help.
I know sometimes
Your room feels like a jail cell,
And you’re just itching to get out,
But sometimes you have to remember
How lucky you are to have a room at all.
You’re parents’ misunderstandings
Are not a death sentence.
Step back from that ledge my friend,
And wait for the day
When someone holds your hand,
And starts pulling back the layers.
You’ll feel a weight off your shoulders,
And remember that time someone told you
It gets better.
I’m thinking about you tonight, strange girl;
December is never easy,
But if you could just find it in your heart
To think of a child
Who is hungry for everything you own,
Maybe that could be step one
To healing yourself.
Find the strength in yourself
Then pass it on
Find the light in yourself
Then pass it on
Epidemics have endings
We just need more love.
Take a minute to
Find the love in yourself,
Then pass it on.
